In Memory of Gaje Jeffrey Florence

I don't know if I can handle this anymore. There is nothing that I wouldn't do to be with you. As time moves forward, I am still standing still. I open one door just to have it slammed in my face. I pray but nothing ever happens. I start to wonder if there is a God. I am told that I shouldn't ask that question but how am I not suppose too?

The day you died was the day that my life ended. I haven't been the same and probably never will be.

I hope that you are safe. I know that you have to be since you are not here. There is so much that I want to tell you but I can't find the words. I know that some people blame me, hell, I even blame myself but I can't keep doing this.

I wasn't there and I'm sorry. I wish I could have stopped it and even traded places for you. I know that if it would have been me instead of you then everyone would have been a lot happier. I pray that I will wake up and you will be here. I promise you that if I ever see you again, I will tell you all that I want to tell you.

I am sorry for the way that people had treated you when you were here. I tried to make them stop but i was only told that I hadn't a clue as to what was going on. I had a clue and I have a clue now. I watch those same people walk around and all I can think of is, why you? Why couldn't it have been someone else?