In Memory of Gaje Jeffrey Florence

Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the lord my soul to keep,
If I die before I wake,
I pray the lord my soul to take

A prayer was said each night with Gaje. This prayer was recited by his dad with him every night before he would go to bed. His dad continues to say these prayers but now he says them alone. He still prays that God will keep him safe.

You try to picture Gaje up there with walking with God, the image is blurry but if you try hard enough, you can see him. I see him.

You hold on to the memories as though he had never left. You first began to laugh and then the tears start to flow down your face.

You second guess yourself about the way that raise him but then you know you did good, because he was a good child.

You wonder why God took him if we needed him so much, he would have been perfect for this world with his innocence and loving touch.

I feel empty inside, I feel alone.

God please help us, I can't stand it anymore. Let me know our baby is safe. Take our pain away.