In Memory of Gaje Jeffrey Florence

Today is a day of great sorrow for us all. Today, Gaje has been dead for six months. I can't tell you how much my heart aches and how much I wish he was here. I cried, oh, how I cried for him. I dreaded this day even though i knew that it would eventually come.

Six months and it still feels like yesterday. Time has flown by and I can't seem to grasp this world any longer. I went into his room last night and couldn't help but cry. His spiderman boxers where still laying on the floor and there was a drawing in his drawer from where he had just learned to spell his name. He had been practicing and asked me how to spell my name, his dads name, and his baby sisters name. After learning to spell it, he tried to master his writing even more. I miss those memories.

Six months and I still feel the heartache. They say that each day will make it better, they lied. I will never be better. I don't need any help, I will deal with this in my own time but time will not make me better.

I can't stand the dreams that I have of that day and today, has shown me how much my life has been such a bliss without him.